Monday, August 9, 2010


Blakely Olivia Moran & Palmer Michelle Moran today weighing in at 3 pounds 7 ounces and 3 pounds and 5 ounces.

The last two days have been a whirlwind, well more of a whirlwind than the last 7 months. Yesterday around noon I started feeling a little funny. Around 4:30 I took my normal dose of breathine. The contractions did not stop, so I took another dose at 6:30. I called the nurse to let her know. She insisted we come in to the hospital to get checked out. Upon arrival they checked my cervix and I was 2 centimeters dilated. Not good! I was 31 weeks today. They told me I would stay and they changed my medicine to stop the contractions. When they did a ultrasound on the twins, there was one concern. Blakely was anemic because the aorta was bleeding into the teratoma. They wanted to do a blood transfusion on her, but because I was contracting it wasn't possible. Otherwise she looked great as well as Palmer.

It was a rough night because I couldn't stop contracting. This morning they changed my medicine again to magnesium sulfate. It was terrible. I became about 100 degrees, had blurred vision, and just felt like crap. Plus it wasn't working. The ultrasound showed the same as last night. The doctor came in and was concerned because I was still having contractions and they had no more medicine to give me. He checked my cervix again and I was now at 4. I also was feeling extreme painful pressure in my pelvis. So he got on the horn and spoke with the surgeon and they made the decision to take the girls.

Within 30 minutes we were in the operating room and they were cutting. I was absolutely terrified. We both were scared for our girls and for me as well as anxious. The doctors were so kind and are amazing. Within minutes they had both girls out and rushed them to their destinations.

Palmer went straight to the NICU here at University Hospital. They put her on a respirator to help her breathe. The doctor actually came in a minute ago and said she was breathing mainly room oxygen and was stable and doing well. Blake was taken across the hall to a resuscitation room.

Blake on the other hand has a lot of issues. The original plan was to take the teratoma off in several days, because of her massive bleed into the tumor they had no choice but to remove 90% of the teratoma on the spot. This made her crash. It took them 2-3 minutes to revive her. She crashed again but she was revived within seconds. She lost a lot of blood. She had to have several transfusions. Her liver is twice the size of a normal liver, they are concerned about her brain activity due to the anemia and long down time when she crashed, she is obviously on a breathing machine, she has 10% of the tumor still attached including her tailbone, her heart is very week due to the over activity it has been experiencing for so long and blood pressure is low.
The doctor has given her a 50/50 chance of survival. If she improves and makes it then they will remove the other 10% of tumor in about 6 weeks. We are now expected to be here until around December at the earliest. Honestly I don't care because if we are still here in December then that means she is improving and she is alive!
On the upside her lungs seem to be in good shape and her other organs like bladder, bowels, intestines seem to be normal but they are going to do ultrasounds in the morning to confirm this.

Just about 10 minutes ago we received a phone call from Dr. Lim her surgeon. These phone calls are and will continue to be scary. You never know what they are going to say. He said she arrived about a hour ago to the RICNIC and was stable for now. They did blood work and will get those results in the morning. They are going to do a echo and ultrasound and brain activity monitoring in the morning. She needs to rest. Jeff is going to go over there tonight to sit with her. I will be allowed to go over in about a day or so. The fetal transport team brought her to my post pardum room and I got to see her precious face. I was so happy!

They both have brown hair and in my eyes are beautiful. Jeff and I are hopeful but are also being cautious. We understand that only God knows her fate. We do know that she is a fighter and hope she continues to be. She needs constant prayer for full recovery. Also Palmer to continue to remain so stable.
I am doing great! I am happy it is all over with and that she is has the best doctors taking care of her. These people are amazing and I am so thankful we chose here for her care. I feel like they love her as much as we do. We both know that with each hour, day, week, month that things will be touch and go and changing. As Jeff said though, He does not have M.D. after his name or GOD as his title, so he is giving it all to those who are in charge and I'm right on board with that. I will forever use this as my testimony for God for bringing us this amazing journey. He has shown me how wonderful and caring people are and that Jeff and I have a marriage that is solid as a rock!

Please provide Blake with the strength to improve, provide Palmer the ability to continue to grow strong, that Jeff & I will remain strong even through the toughest of days, and that we will still continue to give as much love and time to AK as we can.

I know God is in in control! Today my positive note is that I have two beautiful girls and they are alive!!!!

Thank you all so much for caring about us!
We love each and every one of you.


  1. Praying! Praying! Kristen--thanks for the update. my mom called this morning and told me the girls had arrived. You are so right that God is so in control and He is good, and His plan is perfect! Praying for Blake, Palmer and AK. I'm so glad your family has arrived. Praying for strength and peace for all of you during this time. Hope you get some rest tonight.

  2. Sitting here crying: ) This was the first thing I thought of this morning and reading your beautiful post was like opening a gift. They are beautiful Kristen! Congratulations! I can't believe they don't have Jeff's hair! We all are sending prayers constantly for Blake and Palmer. I'm with Jeff. God's got this one. Love and miss you.

  3. I thought about you and prayed for you and the girls all night. I was so happy to see that I had an update to read this morning! I'm praying that God will comfort you and your entire family like only He can.

  4. Please know that many of the "Tucker" family are surrounding you and your sweet family in prayer.

  5. Lifting you up in prayer continually and praying for all your precious girls! God is using you in a mighty way for His Kingdom. Praying for a miracle so God can receive His Glory!!! "LORD, I have heard of your fame, I stnd in awe of your deeds, O LORD. Renew them in our day, in our time make them known; in wrath remember mercy." Habakkuk 3:2 We love you guys so much! Jen